these are the flowers we received from a cyber-friend, sha…thanks dear! as i’ve said, it was the sweetest gesture. *hugs*!
[ito ang mga bulaklak na nanggaling sa isang blog friend, si Sha of Wanderlustsha ilang linggo na ang nakaraan. salamat muli sa pag-alala sa mga oras ng aming kalungkutan...]
as i share the eulogy i prepared for my mom who passed away 25 days ago due to Aneurysm…i feel that i have to journal this one way or the other…
[matagal ko nang naumpisahan ang lahok kong ito na nasa draft mode, hinintay ko lang ang pinaka-akmang tema para sa Litratong Pinoy...]

In times of deepest grief like this, we are only left with the knowledge that our dear mama has found peace at last with her Creator and the thought that she is finally together with papa will help us get through the experience of losing her. This in itself is something to celebrate about. She has earned it and has finally succeeded.
Bittersweet as it may seem, the very recent and last time we were all together has brought so much joy in our hearts, but most importantly to mama. She has always dreamt about us being complete once more, be it here in the States, Canada or in Manila. The trip that was almost impossible was made possible and was truly a dream come true that we will forever cherish. This will only leave us with good memories of her, finally together with her beloved family. Up to the last few days, she wanted to do everything for us…from making Samia’s favorite biko to Marco’s request for her to cook her kaldereta, giving more than she can ever give. Now Chino is asking, ‘who will buy me my electric guitar?’:]
It’s also sad, because it had to end in a matter of 21 days. I can never forget mama’s tightest hug then and how she looked at me while she was in the car when it was time to go to the airport as if she was going to say something. Now I know what it was.
A few days before she passed away, on papa’s birthday, she called me while she was at Himlayan. During those few minutes that we talked, there is no denying that her voice was filled with hope and joy and when we had to hang up, I wanted to say ‘I love you, mama’ but was not able to.
We can say that this is so sudden, so unexpected…but what isn’t? Knowing mama, ate Ine, auntie Ine or Zeny to some, she proved to be the strong woman that she is even up to her last breath. She never wanted anyone to go through the pain of seeing her leave. She’d rather not be a burden to anybody. As much as she can, she always does everything on her own. Mama may have gone ahead of us to be with the Lord and with papa, but this is only so she can start ‘building’ the best house there is for us, her children, as she welcomes us when our time comes, when it is already spic and span, ready to be lived in. This is her ultimate passion, her legacy…and this is what she wants us to remember her by.
As for me, I am who I am because of her and there is nothing more I can ask for. She is my strength, my teacher, my number one critique…our MAMA. I am confident that we will be fine because now she doesn’t have to fly from one place to another to watch over all of us, most especially her dearest apos…I LOVE YOU MA!

….the eulogy i made for mama. i cannot come home to pay my last respects and so my sister read this during the mass for her interment. i appreciate all the prayers and warm thoughts…from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU!
[siguro napili ko ang
para sa pagkakataong ito dahil kayo ang isa sa mga naging kandungan ko sa mga araw na kailangan ko ng kaibigan...salamat!]
Zenaida Salonga Mactal
August 7, 1944 – November 1, 2008
Eternal rest grant unto her soul oh Lord…and let perpetual light shine upon her.
May she rest in peace. Amen.